Saturday, June 20, 2020

And So I Got Arrested: May 8/9, 1970 - Part 2

Around midnight on May 8th, several hundred fellow students began our campaign to again urge drivers to “Honk for Peace.” We milled around in the front of the University, just inside the low rock wall which designated its boundary from the rest of the world. The fabled Rotunda framed the area in which we were standing. Across the street were the police.  They had deployed on three different sides. They wore white riot helmets and carried Billy clubs cradled in both hands.  

They were silent. We weren’t. 

They were focused. We were, too, just trying to get folks to honk their damn horns. 

We were dreaming. They were wide awake.

Over a period of time University officials negotiated with designated “student marshals.”  For the life of me, I have no idea how I became part of that group. But I clearly remember the two-part goal of those on-going conversations and what appeared to be an agreement, at last.  We would move out of the area near the street and gather inside on The Lawn -  the grassy quad that centered the University. The Police would pull back away from The Corner – a surreal version of “out of sight, out of mind.” Turns out we were out of our minds thinking it would actually work. And they had us in their sights all along.

We left the meeting and trotted back towards our fellow protesters to share the good news.  It was never delivered. By the time I reached the stone wall, the students en masse began running away in every direction. I had no idea why, so I stopped, turned around and realized that the police were charging  across the street. 

I don’t remember what route I took but I ran into The Grounds and headed towards a friend’s room on The Lawn.  I practically leaped through the door thinking I was at some sort of a free base but screaming for help from the students inside. Lord knows they tried. It just didn’t stop the physical tug-of-war that took place – my friends holding on to both arms trying to keep me in the room and two policemen pulling at my waist dragging me out.

The cops won. 

They yanked me through an exterior pillar, pulled me around it, ripped my shirt, bruised my head, hauled me out to the street and up the ramp into a waiting Mayflower Moving Van. I wasn’t alone. By the end of the night, another sixty-seven assorted souls – none dangerous – were stuffed in. Yes, there were fellow protestors, but also very well-dressed men and their dates pulled from frat houses or off of the nearby streets, a caretaker and a pizza delivery guy on his way, apparently, to the President’s home. I don’t remember the kind of pizza, but we ate it as we waited. It was nervously silent in that van. I honestly thought we would be reprimanded and then sent on our way. I really wasn’t all that worried.

Wrong again.

The doors on the eighteen-wheeler slammed shut and were locked from the outside. I knew that sound quite well. Two years earlier, I spent the summer in Los Angeles with five close friends and worked moving furniture for Bekins Van and Storage. I had spent time riding inside many trucks before, but none of them opened up at the Charlottesville Police station.

            We were herded inside and seated in an area with pew-like rows. Law school faculty members were already there, and I particularly remember the attention and demeanor of Charles Whitebread who would become a famous criminal law expert.  One by one, we dangerous lawbreakers were brought up to stand in front of a designated judicial representative and had arrest warrants sworn out. I still have mine. Here is what it says:

 

“Whereas W. E. Jordan, state trooper of said city, has this day made complaint and information on oath before me, Ethel Irwin a Justice of the Peace of said city, that Arnold J Magid in said city or within 1 mile of said city on the ninth day of May 1970, did unlawfully, (sic) a member of persons being unlawfully or riotously assembled, the sheriff of the county and live deputies and the police officials of the city having gone among the persons assembled and commanded them in the name of the State to disperse, did fail to disperse in violation of the laws of the Commonwealth of Virginia 18.1-254.8.”


After the obligatory photographs and fingerprinting, just about everybody was released on bonds of $500-1,000 paid personally or from a variety of different sources. I wasn’t and I have no idea why.  Over a 35-year career as a congregational Rabbi I visited many individuals in facilities ranging from local jails to maximum-security Federal prisons. The sounds that the electronic locks make in them are significantly louder than the ones heard on television or movies. The loudest one I ever heard was in that cell in Charlottesville.

A few hours later, in the early morning, I was released.  I called my parents to tell them the news. My father was furious.  My friends’ responses ranged from concern to congratulatory to teasing. Me? I felt angry and betrayed, not only personally but in some sort of communal way in that “outsiders” had invaded the nominally sacred space that was/is Mr. Jefferson’s academical village. But it was not over, not by a longshot.

We graduated June 7 and “walked the Lawn” but the hearings on the arrests were actually scheduled to take place on June 22nd  when I would theoretically be on my way to Jerusalem to begin my five years in rabbinical school. Somehow, though, the city changed its mind about us. Not only were we free, we were informed that the arrests had been nul pros - not prosecuted – and therefore not a part of our record.

Wrong yet again.

In 2015,  I applied for a federal GOES card which would allow me to avoid passport control upon returning from overseas. As part of the procedure, one needs to have a personal interview with a TSA officer. I made the appointment, waited about two months and eventually found myself sitting in front of uniformed investigator. She entered my name in the computer, quietly read the screen, then turned to me and asked: “Are you the same Arnold Magid who was arrested in Charlottesville on May 9, 1970?”

I actually began to perspire and stammered out a response which ended in something like “but it was nul pros.”

The agent looked back at me and said: “So you are the Arnold Magid who was arrested in Charlottesville on May 9, 1970?” 

“Yes, ma’am,” says I. 

“We’ll get back to you,” she said. “Thanks for coming in.” 

I remember going home and telling Annie that I was never going to get a pass. But, I did. 

Maybe one day my arrest on May 9, 1970 will be erased from digital memory. 

But it will always be a part of mine. Always.

Friday, June 19, 2020

And So I Got Arrested: May 8/9, 1970 - Part 1

NOTE:  I graduated the University of Virginia on June 7, 1970. Recently I was interviewed by two UVA students – Anya Karaman (A&S, 2020) and Caro Campos (A&S, 2022) - who were helping to curate an exhibition for Alderman Library on that transformative time of protest and change known now as “May Days 1970”, a story that has always been part of my historical self. Thanks to them, I know how it became an operative part of my core identity.  

Writers are always told “write what you know” and I know, I got arrested fifty years ago on May 9, 1970, a month shy of graduation from the University of Virginia in Charlottesville. 
Back then - a half-century ago (words that seem impossible to accept) – times were complex, confusing, even desperate. Still deeply affected and confused by three assassinations in a five-year period – John F. Kennedy, Martin Luther King, Jr., and Bobby Kennedy – icons all, The Grounds[i] already in turmoil about Vietnam, had just begun to enter the social reality of the twentieth century. Integration had  started. Coeducation was coming. On the cusp of everything, we were on the verge of anything.
To a great extent, my day in the slammer started December 1, 1969.  That evening, we fraternity brothers were nervously transfixed by the television watching the first draft lottery for military service in Vietnam, as ghastly a game format ever was. A group of serious looking old folks sat at a long table facing the camera. Next to them was a smaller desk. Stationed upon it was a bingo ball mixer filled with blue capsules. I’m sure there is a technical name for that device, but it doesn’t seem important now and I sure as hell didn’t care then. We all knew that resting within it was the answer to a dreaded question - who would live and who might die? Another old guy turned the crank to spin out our future, and a plastic ball was pulled out at random. In it was a piece of paper listing one of the 366 days of the year representing every draft age man born on that day
September 14th was the first date announced. None of us.  The second was April 24th, my birthday. I have no memory of my response at that moment, but by the end of the night, we all had our numbers and knew what graduation actually meant. The war had always been an ominous presence in our lives. Now it was real.  And it was close. Just as we do now for COVID-19, every night then on CBS, the great news broadcaster Walter Cronkite, totaled up the daily deaths and injuries in Vietnam presenting us with increasing cumulative numbers for that tragic war.  It was the prism through which we saw almost everything.
Over the next five months, life at the U included petitions, rallies, demonstrations, new political parties, coalitions –  serious, intense, sometimes abrasive, but all relatively benign and civil. I remember being cautiously welcomed into homes of pro-Nixon “townie” families willing to talk with antiwar students. Although both sides were direct and impassioned, the evenings  always ended with dessert, coffee and expressions of thanks. We agreed to disagree. 
Starting April 30, 1970, our lives changed. President Nixon announced an “incursion” into neutral Cambodia in an effort to stop North Vietnam from moving war supplies into South Vietnam.  Many Americans and all of my closest friends knew this was a significant expansion of US military power. Those draft numbers loomed even larger, a sense of nervousness hung over The Grounds and life seemed to explode in every direction.  
            Four days later, students at Kent State were murdered by National Guard troops and our growing sense of despair morphed into anger and fear. Everyone learned the lyrics of Neil Young’s song “Ohio”, created as a result of a searing image on a magazine cover -  two students, one murdered and one kneeling hysterically by her side: 

Tin soldiers and Nixon coming,
We’re finally on our own.
This summer I hear the drumming,
Four dead in Ohio.

Gotta get down to it
Soldiers are cutting us down
Should have been done long ago.
What if you knew her
And found her dead on the ground
How can you run when you know?

          The following day, more demonstrations, more petitions, more teach-ins, a march on Carr’s Hill, home of University President Edgar Shannon, ending in an “occupation” of Maury Hall, the ROTC building.  After that, more of the same, this time including a “Honk For Peace” in front of the University. And then an evening  strike rally led by William Kunstler and Jerry Rubin,  another march on President Shannon’s home, a second taking of Maury Hall. There was more, much more.
          On May 8, another “Honk For Peace” began in the late evening.  This time, the situation had changed dramatically. Over the previous few days, the presence of police became larger and more pervasive. There were no confrontations nor were any planned, at least among students. Earlier that day, based on a rumored story, several friends jumped into my car and drove to University Hall, UVA’s basketball arena. We were shocked to discover that the rumors were true. The parking lot was filled with police cruisers and a vehicle that looked akin to a Brink’s bank truck. Policeman in many different uniforms were everywhere. They wore riot helmets. They had dogs. We were scared and worried but also believed that we would never provide a reason for them to invade The Grounds.
          We were wrong.


[i] “The Grounds” is UVA-speak for Campus.

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

What the heck, I like words - A

WARNING:  this posting has a quickly passing R rating

I have always loved words and I mean always.  And now the R rating.  I know this to be the case since I was photographed as a two-year-old sitting buck naked on the big boy toilet reading a book. Still have the photo although for the life of me I can't imagine why. 
Then again, I have no idea why I still have, treasure, and use the dictionary I received for my Bar Mitzvah in 1962 -  Webster’s New Collegiate Dictionary (G&C Merriam Co., 1959), which also includes  "Abbreviations" (10 pages),  "Arbitrary Signs and Symbols" (2 pages),  "Biographical Names" (43 pages),  "A Pronouncing Gazetteer" (76 pages),  "A Pronouncing Vocabulary of Common English Given Names" (7 pages),  "Vocabulary of Rhymes" (5 pages),  "Orthography - American and British" (3 pages),  "Punctuation, Compounds, Capitals, Etc." (8 pages), "Preparation of Copy for the Press" (3 pages) and "Colleges and Universities in the United States and Canada" (15 pages).  And all of this squeezed into a 3-inch-thick volume  self designated as having "thin pages" plus letter thumb tabs and gilt edges – still shiny after 58 years. The best part is I still have an interest in actually reading it - but not on the toilet. So, here are a few of my favorites from pages 1-30, meaning that this will be a LONG-term project. Feel free to share which you like.

-A-

Abdominous - having a large belly.

Abecedarian – one learning the alphabet; one teaching the rudiments of learning.

Abreaction – the removal of a complex or suppressed desire, as by talking it out.

Absonant -  discordant; contrary; unreasonable.

Absterge – to clean as by wiping.

Abulia – loss of willpower.

Acidulous – slightly sour.

Adjuvant -  helping; an assistant.

Adz/Adze -  a cutting tool having a blade set at right angles to the handle.

Akimbo – with the hand on the hip and the elbow turned outward.

Algophobia – morbid fear of pain.

Alluvium – soil, sand, gravel or similar material deposited by running water.

Almoner -  one who dispenses alms for another.

Altruism – regard for a devotion to the interest of others.

Amanuensis – one employed to write from dictation, or to copy manuscript; a secretary.

Ambsace -  double aces, the lowest throw at dice; the least thing or particle possible. 

BONUS:
 This actually happened. While we were waiting for some medical tests to be taken, a young office assistant came in and informed us: "the lobotomist will be here shortly." Neither of us said a word.  First time I was glad to have blood taken.

Saturday, May 30, 2020

A Virus Speaks All Languages - Life in a COVID-19 World - Part 4 REDUX

NOTE: I wrote this originally on 5/20/20. It was updated on 5/30/2020 with comments in BOLD CAPS.

I never planned for this to be so heavily COVID-19 focused. This will be my last one on that topic - for a while. Then again, as my great-grandfather said mentchen trach und Gott lach - "humans plan and God laughs."   NOBODY HERE OR IN THE HIGH HEAVENS IS LAUGHING NOW.   

Never could understand, what with all the spells that JK Rowling came up with for Harry Potter and his gang, why someone couldn't just wave their magic wand and abracadabra life's problems away - especially now. I have coveted one of these wands recently after following the COVID-19 numbers from Johns Hopkins. Why did I do that? Morbid curiosity - maybe? In truth, though, it was in order to answer some BIG PICTURE questions that have been bothering me. Here's what I discovered about the four-day period of May 6-10, 2020 NOW UPDATED AS OF 5/30/2020.

Q: Is it a good idea to close the southern border with Mexico?
A: It might make more sense to close the northern border with Canada. Turns out that Canada has 1/4 the population of Mexico, but four times the number of cases. NO LONGER. NOW THE NUMBER OF CASES ARE SIMILAR BUT MEXICO HAS 25% HIGHER NUMBER OF DEATHS.

Q: How good a job has all of North America done in battling COVID-19?
A: Not good.  Over four days, deaths continent-wide increased 20% to a total of 80,000. 117,000 ABOUT 1/3 OF DEATHS WORLD-WIDE.

Q: Don't hear much about South America. What's going on?
A: Reports are in from Brazil, Peru, Chile, and Ecuador. They have been averaging 9% increases every day. Columbia just reached 10,000 cases and made it to the Johns Hopkins list. IT LOOKS LIKE A DISASTER NOW. CASES INCREASED FROM 475K->725K AND DEATHS HAVE RISEN BY 50% TO 36,000.

Q: At least Europe's "flattened the curve," right?
A: Yes, unless you are one of the 5400 new deaths recently added. And welcome Serbia, who also made the list. I SUPPOSE SO. STILL THE EU HAS ALMOST 2 MILLION CASES OVERALL AND 173,000 DEATHS. ADDED TO THE OVER 1,000 CASES “ENTRY LEVEL” LIST ARE: LUXEMBOURG, HUNGARY, GREECE, BULGARIA, BOSNIA AND HERZEGOVINA, CROATIA, ESTONIA, SLOVENIA, ALBANIA, LATVIA AND KOSOVO.

Q: Won't heat make the virus disappear?
A: Hmmm... NOT. It has been hitting the 100 degrees mark on a daily basis in the Arabian peninsula but UAE has averaged 6% increases in cases, Saudi Arabia hits 9% and Qatar tops them all at 10%. Remember, that's every day for four days. CURRENTLY, THE HEAT HASN’T SLOWED DOWN THE  200,000 CASES OR 930 DEATHS (MORE ABOUT DEATH NUMBERS LATER).

Q: What about Caribbean cruise to get away from it all?
A: Cruise? Really? And let's hear it for Dominican Republic who also made the list. SO HAS CUBA AND JAMAICA.

Q: But, Africa's safe, right?
A: Having been beat the heck up by Ebola and HIV/AIDS, South Africa has managed to squeeze onto the list, as well. NOW BREAKING INTO THE 1000+ LIST INCLUDE: ALGERIA, NIGERIA, MOROCCO, GHANA, CAMEROON, SUDAN, SENEGAL, DJIBOUTI, DEMOCRATIC REPUBLIC OF THE CONGO, IVORY COAST, GABON, SOMALIA, KENYA, MALI, TUNISIA, ZAMBIA, WITH MANY OTHERS ON THE DRAMATIC RISE.

Q: Is there a cultural connection?
A: Maybe so. The Romance language countries of Spain, Portugal, France, Italy and Rumania account for 83,000 deaths meaning 31% of the world's deaths. Look for a change in cheek kissing and more "air kissing." TO THIS ADD ANOTHER 7,000.

Q: Is there a cultural connection - part 2?
A: Maybe so. The English-speaking countries of US, Canada and the UK account for 117,000 deaths or over 41%. NOW INCREASED BY 25% TO 146,000

Q: So, how does the world look by continent?
A: 52.3% Europe -> 31%
     31.3% North America –> 28%
      9.0%  Asia                 ]
        .6%  South America    
] -> 36%
      AFRICA               ]

Q: All of which means (at the very least)?
A: Possibly troubles for Africa and S. America. LET’S NOW CALL THAT TRAGEDY A ‘BREWING. Seems hard to believe that India with a population of 1.3 Billion could only have 6600 deaths. ACTUALLY, THEY SHOW THAT NUMBER DECLINED BY A THIRD.

       I'm not planning on doing this again. At least I don't think I am. Just remember that numbers are hard to spin IF they are truthful. We are in deep enough without lying about it. Reality is confusing  now as it is. And yet, one last "compound" question still remains.

Q: What does it mean that the so-called "developed nations" of the world account for over 80% of the deaths? Humbling isn't it?
A: THOSE NUMBERS HAVE DECREASED TO 60% WHICH MIGHT SOUND/LOOK GOOD UNTIL THE GREATER TRUTH EMERGES – COVID 19 IS STARTING TO DEVASTATE EVERYWHERE ELSE.

THE STATISTICS ARE BECOMING HARDER TO FOLLOW WHICH MEANS WE ARE LITERALLY LOSING TRACK OF A VIRAL ATTACK ON THE PLANET. IN THAT CONFUSION DANGER RESIDES IN THE LACK OF TRUTH AVAILABLE FOR US:

1. IT SEEMS TO ME THERE IS SOME LOOSE FORMULA BEING USED BY MORE AUTOCRATIC GOVERNMENTS RESULTING IN DEATH RATES OF <1%.

2. THE “STANDARD” REPORTING SYSTEMS BEING USED BY JOHNS HOPKINS HAVE SUBTLY CHANGED:
            A. THE BASE NUMBER “TO MAKE IT TO THE LIST” INTERNATIONALLY USED TO BE 10,000. NOW IT IS 50,000 WHICH MEANS THAT FEWER NATIONS ARE LISTED CHANGING THE PERSPECTIVE OF COVID 19 IN THE WORLD. 
            B. FOR THE US, THE DAILY PERCENTAGE CHANGE HAS GIVEN WAY TO A PERCENT OVER THE LAST SEVEN DAYS. THAT MAY BE GOOD AS A WAY TO UNDERSTAND THE “FLOW” OF THE DISEASE BUT UNLESS ONE IS AWARE OF THAT CHANGE THE INCREASES LOOK GIGANTIC AND THUS MORE FRIGHTENING.

3. IT DOESN’T TAKE THE MASSIVE “PAUPER” GRAVES OF NYC AND HORRIFIC STORIES FROM MEXICO CITY TO REALIZE THAT FAMILIES HAVE JUST LOST TRACK OF THEIR LOVED ONES AND GOVERNMENTS ARE PLAYING FAST AND LOOSE WITH THE NUMBERS. THIS WILL GET WORSE. WITH THE 1918-20 INFLUENZA, GOVERNMENT SIMPLY LIED ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON BECAUSE THEY SIMPLY DIDN’T KNOW.

HAVE WE FIGURED OUT NOTHING IN ONE HUNDRED YEARS?



Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Just because I like it - #1

NOTE: I'm lost - a lot. Yes, I get where I'm going, but even with GPS life can be, well, interesting. I have always claimed that confusion as "part of my charm." Now I know it is a collective charm and reality having discovered a Facebook support group with the scientifically prescriptive name Directional Disorientation aka Developmental Topographical Disorientation. This disorder refers to a lack of the ability to orient intuitively in the world. This group is about recognizing that this is a "real thing," supporting each other, sharing tips and tricks, regaining our self-respect, and educating others that we're not lazy or stupid because we can't find our way around. We will never have our own TV commercial for DD and as a member please know I am not making mock of it. I promise you it isn't funny, except when it is with a story from my group. It is shared here with permission although no one seems to know who the original author was.
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As a singer I sing at many funerals & I was recently asked by a funeral director to play & sing at a graveside service for a homeless man. He had no family or friends, so the service was to be at a pauper's cemetery out in the country. As I was not familiar with the area, I got lost. I finally arrived an hour late and saw that the funeral guy had evidently gone and the hearse was nowhere in sight. There were only the diggers and crew left and they were eating lunch. I felt badly and apologized to the men for being late. I went to the side of the grave and looked down and the vault lid was already in place. I didn’t know what else to do, so I started to sing. The workers put down their lunches and began to gather around. I sang from my heart and soul for this man with no family and friends. 
As I sang “Amazing Grace”, the workers began to weep. They wept, I wept, we all wept together. When I finished, I packed up my keyboard and started for my car. Though my head hung low, my heart was full.
As I opened the door to my car, I heard one of the workers say, “I’ve never seen nothin’ like that before and I’ve been putting in septic tanks for twenty years.” 
Apparently, I’m still lost….

Thursday, May 14, 2020

Dangling - Journal #1

NOTE: Every three weeks I have a procedure for an absolutely non-life-threatening issue. I just do it and it's not a big deal. Recently though, insurance has removed me from the calm of an in-home setting to a new office environment. Seemed appropriate to write about, so I did.

    Sitting in the infusion chair my feet dangle and do not touch the floor.
    Why is that? Is it made for giants?
    I understand why my sweet Annie had the couches made smaller and special for her. Feet on the floor is both grounded and controlling.
    Dangling means dangering. You never know when/if you are going to contact something/anything solid when you finally get out of it. It could also be that the chair's size/dimensions are designed to make clear how we just float in life on our own while it goes on around us. The chair overwhelms us as does the sickness forcing us to give ourselves over to the illness and those who have expertise/skill/desire/empathy to help us.
     Easy to say but difficult that is for me.
    Giving myself and, worse, my self-control to another person is liberation and subjugation, uncertainty and confidence all wrapped up into one. It says life is bigger than me and if I have done right/am lucky someone will be there to help when I find the courage to finally try for the ground.

Monday, May 11, 2020

A Virus Speaks All Languages - Life in a COVID-19 World - Part 4

NOTE: I never planned for this to be so heavily COVID-19 focused. This will be my last one on that topic - for a while. Then again, as my great-grandfather said mentchen trach und Gott lach - "humans plan and God laughs."     

Never could understand, what with all the spells that JK Rowling came up with for Harry Potter and his gang, why someone couldn't just wave their magic wand and abracadabra life's problems away - especially now. I have coveted one of these wands recently after following the COVID-19 numbers from Johns Hopkins. Why did I do that? Morbid curiosity - maybe? In truth, though, it was in order to answer some BIG PICTURE questions that have been bothering me. Here's what I discovered about the four-day period of May 6-10, 2020 - only...

Q: Is it a good idea to close the southern border with Mexico?
A: It might make more sense to close the northern border with Canada. Turns out that Canada has 1/4 the population of Mexico, but four times the number of cases.

Q: How good a job has all of North America done in battling COVID-19?
A: Not good.  Over four days, deaths continent-wide increased 20% to a total of 180,000.

Q: Don't hear much about South America. What's going on?
A: Reports are in from Brazil, Peru, Chile, and Ecuador. They have been averaging 9% increases every day. Columbia just reached 10,000 cases and made it to the Johns Hopkins list.

Q: At least Europe's "flattened the curve," right?
A: Yes, unless you are one of the 5400 new deaths recently added. And welcome Serbia, who also made the list.

Q: Won't heat make the virus disappear?
A: Hmmm... NOT. It has been hitting the 100 degrees mark on a daily basis in the Arabian peninsula but UAE has averaged 6% increases in cases, Saudi Arabia hits 9% and Qatar tops them all at 10%. Remember, that's every day for four days.

Q: What about Caribbean cruise to get away from it all?
A: Cruise? Really? And let's hear it for Dominican Republic who also made the list.

Q: But, Africa's safe, right?
A: Having been beat the heck up by Ebola and HIV/AIDS, South Africa has managed to squeeze onto the list, as well.

Q: Is there a cultural connection?
A: Maybe so. The Romance language countries of Spain, Portugal, France, Italy and Rumania account for 83,000 deaths meaning 31% of the world's deaths. Look for a change in cheek kissing and more "air kissing."

Q: Is there a cultural connection - part 2?
A: Maybe so. The English-speaking countries of US, Canada and the UK account for 117,000 deaths or over 41%.

Q: So, how does the world look by continent?
A: 52.3% Europe
     31.3% North America
      9.0%  Asia
        .6%  South America

Q: All of which means (at the very least)?
A: Possibly troubles for Africa and S. America. Seems hard to believe that India with a population of 1.3 Billion could only have 6600 deaths.

       I'm not planning on doing this again. At least I don't think I am. Just remember that numbers are hard to spin IF they are truthful. We are in deep enough without lying about it. Reality is confusing  now as it is. And yet, one last "compound" question still remains.

Q: What does it mean that the so-called "developed nations" of the world account for over 80% of the deaths? Humbling, isn't it?
A: ........






Saturday, May 9, 2020

The Joys of Sidewalk Chalk

The neighbors across the street have three amazing kids. A few bucks to buy washable sidewalk chalk and an open invitation to use our driveway produced these amazing results. And lots of happiness, connection plus a brief period of time forgetting reality.







Friday, May 8, 2020

Sometimes a Single Event Can Change Our Lives - Ahmaud Arbery

My daughter-in-law, Laura Tomasulo Magid, posted this on Facebook today. It appears with her permission.


I run. Every day since this madness started, I run. And I’m not even a runner. But still, I run. I run to keep my sanity. I run to be alone for 20 minutes. I run to clear my head. But today, today #irunwithmaud ! And I remember a man who went out for a run, just like I do every day, except he didn’t get to come home.

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Dr. Tom Kirschen from King's College Hospital ICU, London - Life in a COVID World - Part 3

Dr. Tom Kirschen is my son-in-law's "best mate" working in a London ICU. This is his experience and a video message attached.
“As the number of cases began to climb in the UK, colleagues and I became ever more anxious. With the anticipation of things to come and an expectation of the worst, as portrayed in the media from Italy, we imagined corridors lined with patients waiting for critical care treatment, with others being denied treatment on account of their age or medical history. Thankfully, it has been more manageable than expected and we have consistently been able to meet demand.
As expected, we have certainly seen higher mortality rates than we’re accustomed to, which can be difficult to deal with and there is undoubtedly an emotional fatigue associated with this. The extent of this fatigue will largely be dictated by duration, however, and not the specific mortality of coronavirus. In fact, having predicted a 50% death rate among the intensive care cohort, many hospitals are achieving less than 30%, with this being the most critically ill group of affected people. Nonetheless, it is quite conceivable that there will remain critically ill patients with coronavirus for many months, or even a few years, to come.
For those patients requiring intensive care, it typically takes two to three weeks of supported ventilation, deep sedation and at times support of other organs, particularly the kidneys and cardiovascular system, before being well enough to move to a normal ward. This can also be delayed by extensive episodes of delirium which is not unusual following a period of sedation. Similarly, the physiological impact of being ventilated and sedated for that length of time – not even breathing for oneself – results in a profound loss of muscle mass, which can significantly affect progress in breathing independently, talking and mobilizing.
As for the future – anyone who offers a clear picture is speculating. We simply cannot reliably predict the trajectory this will take. Clinically, the patterns of pathophysiology are nothing short of bizarre, with patients showing great variation in their illness, quite unlike many of the typical illnesses seen in intensive care. For example, rather than seeing a steady decline in blood pressure over an hour say, it may fall quite suddenly, inducing an immediately life-threatening situation in a patient felt to be stable minutes earlier. Some patients exhibit interference with their pulmonary circulation making the balance of gases in the blood unstable. Blood clots in the deep veins and lungs are common, but not universal, and the incidence of renal failure remains high but largely unpredictable. So from a clinical perspective, there is no well-established pattern to follow and I feel the epidemiology of this is likely to be the same. As such, I can only imagine a gradual, ever-reviewed process is required with a hesitancy to return to normal life probably a safer option than haste.
            On a personal note, I have to admit I have no idea what lockdown ‘normal’ is for the majority of the nation. I still get up, go to work, albeit on an adjusted shift pattern, get into my scrubs and PPE and onto the unit. I don’t go to work feeling especially endangered, though without doubt we all know there is a risk and are are constantly vigilant of where the threat is coming from. I know I have coronavirus on me, and I’m meticulous about removing my PPE systematically, washing my hands and face before I head home from a shift. With this said, having it on me can’t hurt me, or my partner, I just need to prevent it from getting into us! Meanwhile, as always, my A&E nurse fiancĂ© is much braver than I, barely giving the situation a second thought – perhaps thanks to some terrifying experiences in Sierra Leone responding to the Ebola crisis – but it keeps me both balanced and motivated.
As for now, I am feeling cautiously optimistic. The number of patients being discharged is increasing, while the in-flow of new patients is decreasing. There remains anxiety over the prospect of a post-lockdown resurgence, and the question of whether we see a further peak in the autumn as global travel is likely to be re-established and the weather cools. Nonetheless, I am confident the NHS will be better prepared and better experienced to respond, perhaps even alongside many of the usual services that we hope to see reinstated over the coming weeks and months. In the meantime, we need to encourage each other to continue with the special measures in place as, despite my cautious optimism, we are not out of the woods just yet. We will be though, and I look forward to joining you in celebration when the day comes. Stay safe.”

Video message from Dr Tom Kirschen



Wednesday, April 29, 2020

What the Numbers Really Mean: Life in a COVID World - Part 2

By the numbers and for the record...
3,170,000 - cases worldwide
1,028,065 - cases in the US
   224,708 - deaths worldwide
     59,443 - deaths in the US
            47 - days without other human contact
            42 - nights outside singing God Bless America at 7 pm

That's the reality and this is what's on my mind...
Today marks one million cases of COVID–19 and almost 60,000 deaths in the US, an increase of 900,000 cases and 55,000 deaths in less than a month.  
Most Americans watch the daily fluctuations up and – from time to time, albeit rarely – down as if they are a function of a ghastly viral algorithm. COVID-19 keeps moving on. It does not care that its victims were individual human beings, souls who have lived and shared life, touched others, quietly influenced generations. That memory is left for us, the living, who are destined to comfort those who have been afflicted or mourn for those who have been lost. We, who have survived and feel victimized as we remember the faces of those we love, living or forever gone. 
Not everyone, however, has been personally touched – yet. That makes it easier to let the abstract nature of numbers be the perceived truth of this pandemic. We cannot do that. Let me give life to the statistics…

One million cases represents the infection of every person living in the states of:
Alaska,
Delaware,
Montana,
North Dakota, 
South Dakota, 
Rhode Island, 
Vermont, and 
the District of Columbia.

Sixty thousand deaths equals the extinction of every person living in these state capitals:
Cheyenne, Wyoming
Charleston, West Virginia
Harrisburg, Pennsylvania
Olympia, Washington
Jefferson City, Missouri
Annapolis, Maryland
Juneau, Alaska
Dover, Delaware
Helena, Montana
Carson City, Nevada
Concord, New Hampshire
Bismarck, North Dakota
Pierre, South Dakota
Montpelier, Vermont
Augusta, Maine
Frankfort, Kentucky

Understanding these numbers as people is how we connect to the heartbreak that awaits our nation’s future. Take a deep breath. We all have more strength than we realize. Find it.

Thursday, April 23, 2020

Into the Night - Life in a COVID World - Part 1

By the numbers and for the record...
2,500,000 - cases worldwide
   809,000 - cases in the US
   171,810 - deaths worldwide
     44,881 - deaths in the US
           41 - days without other human contact
           36 - nights outside singing God Bless America at 7 pm

That's the reality and this is what's on my mind...
       Six months ago, we rescued a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel bearing a distinctly Disneyesque name. Caveys, however, are so anciently British that they are the only dog permitted full access to Parliament, a law which remains to this day. As a result, my devoutly Anglophile wife, resolved to find a moniker reflecting both that heritage and the epitome of contemporary UK-ness. Thus, the pup became Dame Maggie Smith or Maggie to her nearest and dearest. Given COVID-19, that means us - alone. 
       At 11:00 pm, Maggie and I go out. Same pattern every night: lightweight coat,  iPhone and flashlight in left pocket, green doggy bags and house keys in right pocket, and - of late - a surgical face mask.  Over the last six weeks I have noticed a change. The increased quiet was to be expected.  But everything seems darker. Houses are unlit. Cars rarely drive up our street and few travel on the main boulevard outside our neighborhood. Fewer still pass on the nearby 405. And the air seems dense, as if the lack of light has become a physical barrier slowing all movement.
       When I first noted this, I defaulted to what was left of my rabbinic brain and remembered my "favorite" Egyptian plague -  number nine, darkness - not that I actually enjoyed any of them. Rather,  what I appreciated were the literary commentaries of the medieval rabbis answering a Johnny Carson-like question - How dark was it?  One of these Sages explained that the darkness doubled and redoubled upon itself. Another compared it to being inside of a mine.  The great traveler Ibn Ezra, said he had actually seen it happen many times while on the Atlantic Ocean, obviously referring to fog banks he had experienced.  Beyond just the description of the plague, these rabbinic riffs on the biblical story made the darkness substantial.  But according to the text, Jewish homes were still blessed with light meaning that although the distanced external reader of the story is generally immersed in the rushing narrative on the way to freedom, those "living" in the narrative display little emotional content. We do not know how the darkness made the enslaved Israelites feel.
        I know how the darkness makes me feel. When I walk with my dog, we do not dawdle. We share purpose. Maggie has to take care of her business. I have to take care of her outside so she can take care of us inside. It is not that we run, it is just that we have an intent to get done, move on, feel safe again.  Truth to tell, for the first time I feel discomforted and frightened.  I am hardly heroic, but my senses are definitely heightened over those 2250 steps. An overhead streetlamp that goes out makes me want to move faster, wishing that my beloved dog knew how to use a toilet.  Once a convoy of four police cruisers flew by with quiet intensity, their blue and red lights spinning wildly, making me think I heard the world whisper, “danger ahead” and I pulled back into the darkness rather than leaning forward wondering where they were going. Worse still, a bike rider who recently glided silently along our path startled me so much that I admit there is now a box cutter in my right pocket. I have no idea what I would do with it, but it seems to be important if not comforting. When I let my guard down, I realize that it is not the ninth plague of darkness that I actually think about as we walk, but the 10th – the passing through of the Angel of Death.
        Searching broadly through my rabbinic memory, I find myself unaware of disturbing  descriptions or explanations of that fatal last evening in Egypt in spite of the glosses that movies serve up to us, the visual images of that night gifted by deMille and DreamWorks. So it is that I wonder what kind of pain exists within those dark windows of houses I pass. How much sadness focuses their conversations? Do they carry their smart phones around with them anxiously awaiting phone calls? While I am willing to be entirely wrong about these reflections, it is fair to say that my usual optimistic self has already passed over cynicism, in and out of pessimism, landing squarely on realism when I ask myself these questions. 
They are not theoretical. 
Within a 2-mile radius of our home are the neighborhoods of Inglewood, Culver City, Westchester and Playa Vista. According to the last LA Times report of COVID-19 cases, in our little area, 251 individuals have been stricken.  Extrapolating the statewide number of cases and deaths that means that there have been nine deaths nearby. On my nightly walk, it is that truth that I feel.
  And I carry my own truth as well, for night after night, when I plunge into the darkness thinking about that terrible last plague and hoping I walk under a symbolic portal like those doors in Egypt painted with blood to ward off the Angel of Death, I remember that I am the firstborn son of a firstborn son of a firstborn son.